FOR SALE
Guy
de Maupassant
How
intoxicating it is to go off on foot when the sun comes up and walk in the
morning dew along the fields beside the calm sea !
How intoxicating ! It penetrates your eyes by
the sunlight, your nostrils by the delicate summer air, your skin by gusts of
wind.
Why do we keep such a clear, cherished, sharp
memory of certain moments of love of the Earth, the memory of a delicious and
fleeting sensation like a caress of a landscape encountered at the turn of a
road, at the entrance to a valley, on the edge of a river, just as if one were
meeting up with a lovely, friendly young woman ?
I remember one day in particular. I was going
along the Brittany coast towards the tip of Finistère. I was going in a rapid
pace along the shoreline, without thinking of anything. It was in the region of
Quimperlé, that most delightful and beautiful part of Brittany.
A spring
morning, one of those mornings that make you twenty years younger, that renew
your hopes and recreate your dreams of adolescence.
I was going
along a barely-marked path between the wheat fields and the waves. The stalks
were motionless, and the waves were barely perceptible. You could smell the
soft aroma of the ripe fields and the marine odour of the kelp. I went on
thinking of nothing, straight ahead, continuing my tour of Brittany by the
coastline that I had begun two weeks beforehand. I felt strong, agile, happy
and gay. I was on my way.
Thinking
of nothing ! Why think in these moments of the unconscious, profound, physical
joy, the joy of the animal that is running in the grass or flying in the blue
air under the sun ?
I heard
singing of pious chants in the distance. A procession, perhaps, as it was a
Sunday. But when I rounded a little cape I stood immobile, ravished. Five large
fishing boats appeared full of people : men, women and children going to
Plouneven.
They were
going along the seashore, slowly, scarcely advancing under a faint, enfeebled
breeze that swelled their brown sails a little, then, dying down right away,
let them fall down again, flaccidly, alongside the masts.
The heavy
vessels slid slowly along, heavily loaded. And everyone was singing. The men,
upright on the planks, wearing high hats, chanted their powerful notes ; the
women cried out in their sharp tones and the tinny voices of the children
sounded like fifes in that pious and violent clamour.
And the
passengers of the five boats were chanting the same hymn, whose monotonous
rhythm rose up into the calm sky ; and the five boats advanced one after the
other, close by each other.
They
passed in front of me, right before me, and I watched them go off into the
distance as their chant became ever fainter and then faded away.
And I
began to dream of delicious things in a puerile and charming way, as young
people do.
How that
age of dreaming, the only happy moment of one’s existence, flees rapidly away !
You are never solitary, never sad, never morose or desolated when you possess
that divine faculty of losing yourself in your hopes whenever you are alone.
What a fairy-land, where everything can happen in the hallucination of vagabond
thoughts ! How life is lovely under the gold-dust of dreams !
Alas,
that’s all over now.
I had
begun to dream. Of what ? Of all that one is ceaselessly waiting for, of all
that one desires, of fortune, of glory, of women.
And I
went on with rapid paces, caressing with one hand the blond heads of wheat
bending under my fingers and tickling my skin as if I were touching someone’s
hair.
Coming
around a small promontory I saw, at the end of a narrow, round beach, a white
house built on top of three terraces that led down to the shore.
Why did
the view of that house make me quiver with joy ? Do I know ? Sometimes when you
are travelling like that you come across places that you feel you have known
for a long time, they seem so familiar, they are so pleasing to your soul. Is
it possible that you have never seen them before ? That you have never lived
there at some time ? Everything about them seduces you, enchants you — the soft
profile of the horizon, the disposition of the trees, the colour of the sand.
Oh, that
lovely house standing there on top of the slope ! Large fruit-trees had grown
along the terraces that sloped down like giant steps towards the water. And
each one had a long bouquet of Spanish broom on its summit, like a golden
crown.
I
stopped, seized with a feeling of affection for this house. How I would have
liked to own it, to live there, forever !
I went up
to the door, my heart beating with envy, and saw, on one of the fence-posts, a
large sign reading : “For Sale”.
I felt a
shudder of pleasure run through me as if it had been offered to me, as if the
house had been given to me ! Why ? Yes, why ? I have no idea !
“For
Sale.” So it almost didn’t belong to anyone anymore, it could belong to anyone,
to me, to me ! Why did I feel that joy, that unexplainable sensation of
profound light-heartedness ? I well knew nevertheless that I certainly wouldn’t
buy it. How could I have paid for it ? Never mind, it was for sale. The caged
bird belongs to its master, the bird in the air belongs to me and to no one
else.
And I
went into the garden. Oh, that charming garden with its superposed levels, its
lattices with their long arms stretched out like crucified martyrs, its tufts
of golden broom, and two old fig-trees at the end of each terrace !
When I
was on the top one, I looked at the horizon. The little beach spread out at my
feet, round and sandy, separated from the high sea by three heavy brown rocks
that closed the entrance and would break up the waves in times of heavy seas.
On the
point, on the other side, were two enormous stones, a menhir and a dolmen, one
upright and the other couched in the grass, like two strange mates immobilised
by a spell, that seemed to be steadily looking towards the little house that
they had seen being built, they who had known this little bay formerly so
solitary, the little house that they would see one day collapse, fall apart,
fly off and disappear, the little house that was for sale !
Oh !
ancient dolmen and ancient menhir, how I love you !
And I
rang the doorbell as if I were ringing at my own home. A woman came to open the
door, a maid, an ancient little maid dressed in black with a white headpiece,
who looked like a nun. It seemed to me that I also knew this woman.
I said to
her :
— You
aren’t from Brittany, are you ?
She
replied :
— No,
sir, I am from Lorraine.
She added
:
— Would
you like to visit the house ?
— Yes,
most certainly.
And I
went in.
I
recognized everything, it seemed to me : the walls, the furniture. I was almost
astonished not to find my canes in the front hall.
I went
into the salon, a lovely salon carpeted with mats that looked out on the sea
through three large windows. On the mantlepiece were China bowls and a big
photograph of a woman. I went up to it right away, persuaded that I would
recognize her too. And I did recognize her, although I was certain that I had
never met her. It was she, herself, she for whom I was waiting, whom I desired,
whom I called to, whose face haunted my dreams. Her, the one for whom one is
always searching everywhere, the one whom one was going to see in the street in
a moment, whom one was going to find on the road in the countryside when one
sees a red umbrella in the wheat-fields, the one who must have already arrived
at the hotel that I am about to enter during a trip, in the coach that I am
getting into, in the salon whose door is opening before me.
It was
her, assuredly, undoubtedly her ! I recognized her by her eyes that were
looking at me, by her har rolled up in an English bun, by her mouth above all,
by that smile that I had imagined for so long.
I asked
right away :
— Who is
this woman ?
The maid
with the nun’s face replied dryly :
— It’s
Madame.
I
continued :
— She’s
your mistress ?
She
replied in her devout, harsh manner :
— Oh no,
sir !
I took a
seat and said :
— Tell me
about her.
She
remained stupefied, immobile, silent.
I
insisted :
— She’s
the proprietor of this house, then ?
— Oh no,
sir !
— To whom
does it belong, then ?
— To my
master, M. Tournelle.
I pointed
at the photograph.
— And
this woman, who is she ?
— It’s
Madame.
— The
wife of your master ?
— Oh no,
sir !
— His
mistress, then ?
The nun
didn’t reply. I continued, urged on by a vague sense of jealousy, by a confused
anger against that man who had discovered this woman :
— Where
are they now ?
The maid
murmured :
—
Monsieur is in Paris, but as for Madame, I do not know.
I was
shaken :
— They
are no longer together ?
— No,
sir.
I became
cunning and, in a grave voice :
— Tell me
what happened, and I might perhaps be of service to your master. I know this
woman, she’s wicked !
The old
servant looked at me and had confidence in me because of my open and honest
manner.
— Oh,
sir, she made my master so unhappy ! He had met her in Italy and had brought
her back with him as if he had married her. She sang beautifully. He loved her,
sir, so much that it was a pity to see. They were travelling together in these
parts last year, and they found this house that had been built by an idiot, a
real idiot to have built it two leagues away from the village. Madame wanted to
buy it right away and to stay here with my master, so he bought the house to
please her.
They
stayed here all last summer, sir, and almost all winter.
And then,
one day in the morning at breakfast time, Master called me :
—
Césarine, has Madame come home ?
— No,
sir.
We waited
the whole day. My master was in a terrible fury. We searched everywhere but
couldn’t find her. She had left, sir, we never knew where or how.
Oh, what
joy pervaded me ! I felt like kissing the nun, like taking her by the waist and
dancing with her in the salon !
Ah, she
had left, she had escaped, she had grown tired of him, disgusted by him ! How
that made me happy !
The maid
continued :
— Master
was devastated and returned to Paris, leaving me with my husband to sell the
house. We are asking twenty thousand francs for it.
But I was
no longer listening, I was thinking of her ! And, all of a sudden it seemed to
me that all I had to do to find her was to go on my way, that she must have
come back to this region, to this springtime, to see the house, the lovely
house that she would have liked so much, without him.
I thrust
ten francs into the hand of the old woman, took up the photograph and ran off
kissing profusely the lovely face in the photo.
I went back
to my route and began walking along again, looking at her, at her ! What a joy
that she was free, that she had escaped ! For sure, I would meet her, today or
tomorrow, this week or the next, because she had left him ! She had left him
because my time had come !
She was
free, somewhere in the world ! I only had to find her now that I knew her.
And I
continued caressing the bending, golden stalks of ripe wheat, I drank in the
marine air that swelled my breast, I felt the sun kiss my face. I went on, I
went on overwhelmed with happiness, intoxicated with hope. I went on, sure to
meet her soon and to take her back with me to live in our turn in the lovely
house For Sale. How she would be happy there, this time !
With
affection,
Ruben